Starting again - again
Things have happened, as they always plenty of times I should have could have writeen down the fact of the time(and didnt !!!) If I can face the prospect if the searching of my soul in an honest way, I might be able to extract form the past, and write in the hope of creating a future. I'm kicking myself right now so please forgive the tone etc...
My victories are always accompanied by further challenges so I pray rifght now that I can rise up with God help to meet them head on.
My daughter has been losing quite a few personal items recently and it's been a source of anxiety - do I get all judgemental, call her names etc? Do I punish her by taking stuff away when she's got nothing left, in order to make her value her stuff more ?
I visited my own mother - It didnt take her very long at all to bring to my attention that I'v lost her very expensive birthday present to me and that every time she sees me wearing th chain my wife gfave me, it a reminder that I dont consider her or her feelings. Couple d to the fact that I have no idea where the watch she bought for me last year is and I'm shamed into an new level of acceptance maybe - but I pray that if there's thing like thins in my life that I can observe them and use them to achieve a Godly , Fatherly ,rational perspective with the hope that my life and my child can have a fair go...
