Yesterday, we were celebrating Pentecost the evening service at Church was a celebration with food and joyful fellowship - which was going to start earlier because the kids were going back early....I had mentioned this to this quite late in the day, but I'm pretty certain that it came up in discussion this week with other people we know. Anyway I could nt bring myself to insist that we went - ingnoring the voice that told me to speak about it in the first place. My daughter got her hair washed, I did a couple of loads of washing........My son gets up late in the night wanting to get into our bed ( something that is increasing in regularity ) and I follow him back to his room looking a bit gloomy. We get up late for school and are rushing all the way - only to find the playground deserted. I know this is yet another chance for "something" to happen and more learning for me and I pray that when I do learn, I'm able to share - but right now I feel foolish. If I wasnt so proud a person, I'd probably asked why there wasn't a letter in the bags for the last day of term, now, I'm having to ask people who look right through me ( or at least that 's how it feels. This being unemployed thing is really making it hard to feel like someone ) when I see them - I shouldn't mind though - because when I think about it I want God to go before me anyway so maybe THIS is what my teaching is for this set of circumstances.
It could have something or absolely nothing to do with the fact that the new bak cards, which I put away for safe keeping, are nowhere to be seen. I was rushing around trying to find stuff for other people this morning while trying to locate these cards. Maybe I'm being kept from thjem because I've no money in either account!!!! I@ve had Ebay reminders to update details but what if I just leave it? I've paid far more in admin costs than I've earned from sales.....
I have stuff to sell that belongs to my mother-in-law, who's a nice lady and loads of stuff that I'd be happy to take to the charity shops if I didnt fear the tonguelashing I'd get...so lets do lots of "lots" , take out child for biking, try to contact my mum, get some post sorted, shops, bank to shunt some pennies around and see the extent of the damage, practice on the guitar, get some computer housekeeping done,tidy up the real house look at some of the innuerable DIY jobs outstanding,read something from my Bible (which I should've done first !! ). I could find things to do that could fill my day 10 times over and still not have enough time to choose wisely is a lesson for every day surely.