Today has been a bit of a trial - well at least soem of the main events for me. I'm not sure whether it was today or during my rebuilding of my computer, but somewhere along the line, I seem to have deleted some of my song files that I've been working on over the last couple of years - infact my entiure working directory has gone somewhere - as a former IT expert, I 'm taking this rather personally - I'm not supposed to fall at this fence - this kind of stuff is my bread and butter so what's going on eh? There was at leat two or threee signs that the drive was going to fail and for some reason, I've decided to copy my stuff from a known safe place to this dodgy drive and the rest is pretty predictable...The whole sorry situation was topped off by me losing all the wife's stuff as well - photos, documents artwork the lot...
After some hair pulling and some "why me" moments, a desire for calmness was met by the reality of the LOrd knowing all things and having a purpose even for this - admittedly a difficult thing to get to grips with but I managed - I hadn't rebooted at this point and it was all that was left to do - once I'd done this there was no going back ( some people have the cash to go to data recovery services - I dont !! )so the machine stasrts itself up again then it starts to check errors on this shonky drive - I nearly shut it down because it was taking so long but in the end ( about an hour later )th "my documents" folder popped up on this drive - alas no music but all wifeys stuff at least. When she got home, I told her about the machine etc - she said she had been given a word for me that I should be doing more writing and maybe this loss of my music was to allow me to produce more written work !! One way of looking at it I suppose - I am thankful that God didn't leave me in the land of High Anxiety - I'm so grateful to my wife for passing that message on - even if my heart and mind hadn't engaged with the value of this alternate perpective....still got lots of backing up to do and shunting of data - the sidetracks are coming thick and fast - I'm trying harder to tell,write etc...
Amen and Amen